You are conflating running away with freedom. Avoiding difficult feelings won’t help you, use your resilience to abandon extreme emotions instead.
Practice noticing signs of boredom, find ways to unplug that and restore your strength. This is a big step, settle for all or nothing. What do you want to be known for?
Allow things of the past to fade and allow the future to be born out of their ruins. Don’t keep up with everyone else because you’re afraid what you’ll find if your attention inward. Here’s what you’re missing: your tender self, dying to be loved.